Hmm..well, todae theres noting much to do..sick since fridae nite..haiisshh..cry for a reason..den yesterdae i cry again coz of my mum..she lah! manjekan sangat ngan anak yang last..hmp!
Kk..i wanna let it all out..so might as well i just tell u the story rite..hmm..

Well..yesterdae came beck from my makcik house to see my grandma..around 12..watch tv3 there..den when reach our house carpark, park already..my bro sae got a small coakroach on top of her..my mum ask him to catch it..den as always..he is afraid or lazy..den as the one..always have to do the dirty tings..i take 2 pieces of tissue paper..den i caught it..but i nearly drop it..den my bro shout..n cry..hahakz..lyk girl..haiyo3..he desreves it..hahakz..den my mum scold me for no reason..den i storm all the way home first banging n punching everitink in my way..lyk dustbins..boxes..walls..lift..my sharp gate..nice man..even feel lyk punching my idiotic bro..my overflowing tears just drop down..den never sleep until sleep..always tosing n tossing all around my bed..hahakz..den i was even sicker todae..n i told my mum i dun wan to go madrasah coz im sick..n she just sae ok..den i study for awhile..study my madrasah book..den she sae no need to study..just go to sleep n rest..hahakz..she must be feeling really guilty after wat she had done to me..hahakz!..hahakz!..den while resting, just lying down on my bed..he call me!..wee!!..he call me! HEE!! den talk2 for awhile..he also sae tat he also never go madrasah since i was not there..hahakz..instead..he sae he go eat at macdonalds at lot 1 there..den he go to his frens house..hahakz..hmm..but noe i msg him after waking up..he never call..mayb he is busy..or..avoiding me..i always have the feeling tat he is avoiding me..hmm..i dunno why i feel tat way..i just always feel lyk tat..hmm..i guess todae's entry is up till here den..hahakz..bubye n take care people..n dear, please remember tat i love u..hmm..

dreamed at 1:52 PM

Hey people..hmm..having a very very bad dae todae..well..fought with him a little bit todae..well, actually bout sumtink silly..about me going home straight after madrasah..well..i told him during class that i want to go home straight after madrasah..but i never tell him that i am sick..coz i dun want him to worry bout me..and he ask why..i just say that i want to go home..but he tinks that i am avoiding him..but actually im NOT!! CRIOUS!! haiisshh..nash dear..please understand..dun misunderstand me..if u are reading this..im very sorie tau..im really feeling guilty that i have hurt u..alot actually..im really a, sorie dear..i really am..

Den i went to fajar shopping centre for awhile to buy snacks for myself when i reach home..den on the way home..i didnt realise that i accidentally rejected his call at my mom's handphone..when i take it out..i checked..n i saw that he called..den i quickly turn on my handphone which is low in batt..and hope he would call me..so that i can get to explain things to him..but..he instead sae that i purposely rejected his call..but i didnt!!

At home, he call me again..we talk for awhile only..den he sae he wants to change his guitar strings or tings..n he will call me beck after changing it..but i dunno whether it is true or not..either he was really busy or using that excuse to avoid me..haiisshh..i dunno wat to tink..or wat to do..lyk i sae..im sway..a jinx honestly..n i am rite all along..everitink i do seems wrong..just horribly wrong..hmm, now i'm holding beck my flowing tears..haiisshh..dear..are u bored of me already? dah bosan ngan zak eh? haiishh..i hope i am wrong bout that..but if u are, i will not hesitate..n i will give all of your freedom beck..i will not stop u k! but tell me if u already are..

Hmm..dah baek2 zak achieve your expectations..but it is going down..but i try to achieve it again! even better! n i just hope that neither of us will ask for a break..i really dun want to..

Hmm..till den people..bubye n take care..n dear..remember this..zak sayang dear tau! k!

Dun cry zak..dun cry..just hope that u are wrong..n tink of the positive..k!

dreamed at 5:34 PM

Well, todae is the first dae of skool! Hee! very hepi to be beck at skool..see my frens n all..n the first ting i reach skool, i ask hana..'eh2! recess kau makan ape?' hahakz! coz im always hungry..but never get any bigger, taller or fatter..YEAH BEBEH! saw him at the parade square while flag-raising..heh..no wonder i cannot find him..he sit near me..i find him at the beck..heh..zak paiseh2!! HEE!!
Hmm..den i n hana sit at same sits as the previous year in class..heh..! den our class is the biggest in sec 4NA! have 43 students..hahakz..! my god! den 1st ting when reach class..need extra 2 tables n chairs! hahakz! not enough..haiyo3! hahakz..den got some seniors repeat..hahakz..but it's ok..nemind..the more, the merrier rite? Hee! den the most boring ting is tat mr yap is our C.C again! aiyoyo! manyak susah oooo!! hahakz..den we all play2 around in class..make noise..den he scold dexter for fun..he doesn't even do anitink! he's innocent summore! hahakz..mr yap kiasu ah first dae..WAWAWA!! hmm..den i n hana cabot early..go recess..hahakz..HUNGRY3!! den buy rice..with FISH!! YUMMY-YUMMY!! heh! hmm..den while eating..saw him sitting the table in front of me..WEE! but ignore me..hmp! den at the last two periods, got assembly talk..haiya! can sae boring lah! but it's our major exam this year rite..heh..so i wanna study hard..go ngee ann poly maybe in the next two years? or not..hee! hahakz..kk..LAME!! WAWAWA!! den after skool must do beck the banner tat is above the slope there..actually it's not loose..it is because..sum IDIOTIC person go n cut it!! den i must clinb the window to actully remove the twine..haiisshh..den always going to fall..hahakz..but im surviving n am still alive though..heh..n knock my knee n head at the window several times..hahakz..but..im surviving!! HEE!! kk..lame is beck..hahakz!! hmm..den saw him sitting at the flag-pole while re-doing the banner near there..saw him looking! but i ignore him..hmp! well..yeah..i noe it's my fault n it's not his fault for not talking or even smiling at me..as i want a low profile..but not tat low! it's below low i tell u..WUU!! haiisshh..den got np meeting at the beck of the canteen..bout the sec 1 orientation tingy..hahakz..i n nabilah is in charge of the field cooking..haiyo! must buy the rations n all..haiyo3! den must cook for every group..n i mean every group..den lyk for example..theres ten group..we have to cook ten times n eat the maggi mee ten times..wahh! my stomach can get bloated n explode man! hahakz!! den after tat go old chang kee buy sotong head..YUMMY-YUMMY!! HEE!! den go home with hidayu..hahakz..den just now a little bit more i kena accident..nearly hit a motor n a car..hahakz! i escape death this time..but i dunno if i have a chance next time..hahakz!! kk..STOP2!! heh..k lah..till den dear fellows..take care people..n dear..i love u!! WEE!! =)!!

dreamed at 6:32 PM

Can I just change my life?!
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime..EVERYTYM!!
I hate it..wuu..
I almost giving up on trying and now I'm screaming out the pain n hell i have gone thru!
I've gotta keep on fighting!
But then again..
It doesn't end..it criously doesnt..
Everitink i do seems wrong..n i mean everitink..n i criously mean it..
i hurt my DEAR..i hurt my loved ones..a trouble-maker..a LATE "princess"..making everyone wait..n i mean everyone..den they all always ask me to hurry up..well, wat can i do rite..since its a habit of mine since primaray skool..i cant just stop the habit in a 'snap!!' rite?? haiisshh..if u all wanna go first just go first k! i didnt force all of u to wait for me..just go if u really tink it is damn late..just leave me be..so i just go to wherever the place is myself..well..sesat pon sesat kat singapore jugak kan..wawawa!! kalau kene kidnapped pon..nanti lame2 kene tangkap jugak kan orang tu..die nak lari ke mane..aku suffer pon skejap aje..brape hari aje..ever heard of the phrase 'suffer now, enjoy later'? wawawa! lagi pon takde orang tau nye klau aku kene kidnapped..wawawa!!
Take care people..bubye..

dreamed at 10:24 PM

Well..harlow people..todae noting much hapen..hmm..well..he kena grounded for a week..becoz of me..coz i wanna go home late..he never even tell me tat he must go home during tat tym! wuu..now he sae cannot call, msg or even go out..his keys also kena confiscated..walau! coz of bloody damn arse zak! WAHH! noti2 zak..always create trouble for people..well..missing him already..but yesterdae just went out with him..hahakz..plan to go to library..but he never sae which library! den i tot go the lot1..waiting for him dunno 1 hour plus lyk an insane person walking wanderously..im a wandering ghost mah..wawawa! den skali he wait for me at bpp one..WAHH!! den ride lrt n meet him at petir..when i reach there..'Nape gi lot1?'..hahakz..ask me loads of tym..belasan die tanye..wawawa! hahakz..but i didnt care..even though im bored listening to the same questions again n again..at last i ask him to stop asking me..hahakz..sorie dear! den go library read books..but when i sit down..the library woman..nye NOISY!! 'cannot sit here..cannot sit here..haiissh..i prefer the lot one..more peaceful there..can sit aniwhere..but a litttle freezing..heh..well..till den aites! AIAI!! hahakz..take care people..wawawa! miss u n lurve u real lots honey! From: BEES! hahakz..!! bubye..

dreamed at 2:05 PM

Harlow people..well todae is not a good dae for me..hmm..todae is actually my family outing to my dad's company carnival..he bought the tickets..a $20 ticket..but a pity he cant go because he is werking in morning shift..from morning to nite tym..haiissh..i pity my father alot sae..den my mum have to go to her course in the morning..so me, my lil bro n my maid will be waiting for her near the specialist tingy bus-stop there..hahakz..but actually todae u was feeling unwell..i tot it was due to my, err..tingy..but it was not..so i tot maybe it is a normal sickness lyk fever, flu n so on..well..in the lrt to pending..stomach cramp came over me..i have no choice but to sit down to lower the pain..den in the bus..wahh!! feeling lyk vomiting..but i try to hold it until the bus-stop..well..the bus was quite jerky..n my stomach felt worse n at last i have to sit on the floor to hold the pain..when i saw far est plaza, i noe tat we will be arriving soon..when i saw the mandarin hotel, we are supposed to drop down after it..so, we are one bus-stop away from our destination..but i cant hold my vomit animore..while i was going down the steps, vomit came out..i try to cover my mouth..but the vomit was dripping out, leaving a trail in the bus..n summore..my vomit stinks!! =D hahakz..insulting my own vomit..but its true lah..whos vomit smell lyk perfume rite?? hahakz!!!! wahh!! then at last i vomit exactly beside the rubbish bin at the bus-stop..people were lyk staring at me..scaarry!! hahakz..actually my throat was quite painful when vomiting..n a tear just roll down my cheeks..den at last..i have to go the toilet to wash up..sitting at the floor..rubbing my tummy with 'minyak angin'..hahakz..tat tym we are inside heeren..the HMV building i guess..hahakz..den wait for my mum too arrive at the HMV bus-stop..budden i go toilet again..hahakz..den go beck out..den buy plain water outside old chang kee..hahakz..den my mum arrive..JENG, JENG, JENG!! hahakz!! out of nowhere..hmm..tat tym many people msg me..but i just cant reply them for tat tym..well..coz im in pain..n have no strength to even carry my hp..n ask my maid to carry all my things for me..tanks tan!! hahakz!! den at last..we walk to peragon n take taxi home..we cancel the carnival trip..buuhuu!! we tot we wanna see my sis at metro there as she was werking there..but tat tym i just sae tat i wanna go home n rest..so, n tats wat we did..hahakz..well..at the taxi i sort have a huge migrain n i couldnt talk or move..fatigue came over me man..haiissh..but at last when we reach home..my mum n bro went beck to the carnival taking the bus as it is hard to find a parking lot there..at home..just rest n msg him only..hahakz..msging him makes me better..at least i have some company during i was sick..hahakz..k lah..tats my story for todae..hahakz..todae is a sian dae for me..haiissh..k lah..bubye n take care ya people..wawawa!!

dreamed at 10:35 PM

Wahh!! now im chatting with him..just now msg him, his werds..penetrating man..it hurt so deeply..dunno wat kind of feeling is this..den he also never reply..n now i tink he is at the gaming centre i guess..hmm..he ask too many question..n yes im hiding sumtink from him..but i cant tell him now..i hope he understand..coz if i tell him now..he may be angry with me..maybe even hate me for lyf..haiissh..i dunno wat to do now..
All the things i do seems wrong..coz y?? i bring bad luck..hmm..it seems so..n the way he ask me things..seems lyk he doesnt trust me..dunno y..but i can feel it..well..maybe this is an obstacles i have to overcome to go to him..i have to fight it no matter wat..i try to be a better person for him..but i dunno y..but everytink i do seems wrong..i even hurt his feelings before..we quarrel n fights loads of tym..i just hope things are getting better in the near future ahead..but sumtyms the way he msgs or chat with me seems sarcastic..n i hate it coz it hurts deeply..n when he is angry or mad, his werds are penetrating..WAHH!! dunno lah!!
K lah..tats all folks..till next tym k..bubye n take care ya people..tata..

dreamed at 4:34 PM